Sex

I hate feeling like I HAVE to have sex. I want to WANT sex more. I want to make you happy. I want you to feel satisfied with me. I don't want you to feel bad about wanting sex. I don't want me to feel bad about not wanting so much sex. I hate when it can feel like a chore. I hate it when we are intimate, and then you get upset because I didn't climax. I can't help it. I try, I really do. I hate when it affects your whole week, then in turn affects my whole week. I dread that 3rd day when we haven't had sex because that usually means the silent treatment or a bad mood. I've asked about medicines, but was told they aren't the greatest idea. I blame allot of it on my self esteem. If I felt better about myself, I know I would be more open to sexy things like lingerie and kinky games. But I know you love me the way I am. I hear it all the time. You tell me all the time. But if I don't believe it, it isn't going to help. The gist is.....I love you. All of you....I want to be with you and make love to you...just not every night......